RhE’z virtual journal : read n chill

but my head just feel dizzy. suddenly i have to read many things. saudi arabia for GINTRE, and also jordan and iran for child trafficking problem. then for diplomacy in practice, i think i have to prepare some knowledge on kosovo, missile in poland , and 1 more, i forgot…hahahaha…

and i heard from my friend who already read all tasks from ‘english for international relations’ class, she said that we have to prepare many papers and knowledges also terms in international relations (if u know wad i mean really…)

not yet from international relations in regions, i have to know well about many international organizations that have power in a region….also world….

ha.ha.ha….not funny really, but i just wanna share my ‘dizzy’ head feeling. i think i have to prepare myself more to face mid-semester test in a month or a month and a half….

and now…is midnite….and i’m hungry…..semangat!!!

today i just feel really happy. did i say for no reason @ my shout out? well, actually, there might be sum reasons behind my happy feeling..hahahaha..

one of them is just becoz my friends told me that i looked girlie today. yes, that can make me happy, since they rarely said i looked like a girl before and prefer to say that ‘look like a boy’ will fit me better..^^"

and moreover… i came this afternoon to see (since i didn’t have my own digicam) my division taking pic of class of 2007 @ my campus. the freshmen looked great..hahaha…

i hope they’ll all join the camp session later on next 2 weeks…^^"

hmm….i am tempted to tell u my brilliant  happy story here, but i don’t want it to be a public consumption…so i just keep my mouth shut…i mean, my finger stop..hehehehe….

it was truly exhausting, but pretty fun. our club gained at about 130 newbies (its pretty a record, since last year we could only gain 80 newbies for 2 days). but i think they’ll vanished coz many reasons….hahaha…it’s natural selection anyway…

hey! i forgot to tell u, i found this cute-semi-formal dress yesterday! gosh, it’s not that expensive too! it is a turqoise-empire line-above the knee dress. its like a flowy dress that looks really elegant. ^o^ i really am excited to wear it next monday to kath’s party. hehehehe… but i have to do lil trick to the dress. still, i can’t help not to buy it. it just cute. and lidya told me that it just fit me well. happy happy ^^"

lidya once asked me early this afternoon. am i falling in love to sumone? hmmm…i answered her, not yet to that part. but yea, lately i feel like i attracted to sumone..^o^. it just the matter of time to make me feel more or less to that person. hehehehe….

pretty fun, with nice n funny lecturer. we always call our lecturer here (at least in my programme) informal. rather than use sir or something, we mostly call them ‘mas’ (means older brother) for the man, and ‘mbak’ (means older sister) for the women. it’s like having friends but still polite with them.^^

and i have this sorethroat from this morning. i think it’s becoz i’m a bit tired of yesterday. hhh…

hm….i spend much money lately, for the internet thingy and foods. gosh, i must save it more…hahahaha…^^, but i’m still asking my dad to have internet connection in my room…^O^

gosh, i’m back to real life. still can’t believe it.

and for further information, today, when the new freshmen ask biodata and autograph from their senior (it’s their orientation job) , one of them came to me and guessed that i’m 20 (means that i’m claass of 2005, and not 2006 for real)! gosh….when i asked her am i look that old, she said ‘no, u just look mature’. hahaha…good one, i look older coz my face look mature n not becoz i look old…but still, it somehow reminds me that back in the camp, haniff told everybody that i’m 23. and it just worse than my new freshmen…hahahaha…^^"

first event of the day of course not other than morning aerobc. but the difference in my campus is that it parodic. the comitte just taking famous songs, mix it, and have a dance that look like in the video clip for the aerobic. it’s just atradition. tradition of fun in my campus.

i would say that we have a tired yet fun orientation four freshmen, so they could enjoy it and it would build family-environment in the campuss ^^”

hmm…i did my job not that bad today. i snap-shoted some of freshmen doing their things…some of them r kinda funny..^^”

and of course, i got some photos of cute bois too!! see, i’m still normal here, searching for bois not the opposite..huhuhuhuhu…^o^

but i miss my church time for the 3rd week now, feel guilty to Lord, sorry Lord..

today i was working with my publicity and documentation division to make publicity @ campus. quite fun and i don’t know, it just relaxing for me to work with them. hahaha…

there’s funny story when i jumped and acted a bit freak when one of my friends just suddenly appeared from nowhere to surprised us….huah….

tomorrow my campus will accept our new freshmen!! i wonder what kind of freshmen would stand out from the crowd..^^, oh yea, and i have to act ‘cool’ and not smiling all the time like loony to avoid misunderstanding from our freshmen. all the committes have to look ‘mature’ and ‘cool’. ^^"

just now, i have just read my mailing list emails from boy2k7. yea, i miss them still, some of them more…( might be… )^O^", but it is useles i think for me, just only keep saying missing them. i wanna meet them and gather with them again in next events so i wouldn’t have to miss them like this. coz honestly, a week that they geve me back there @ the camp, so far was the best events i have along this year..hahahaa…..^^"

it is 10pm already here in Bandung, where i live, n i’m in the internet cafe near my place, since i havn’t checked the internet today n i’m a bit addicted with internet surfing, i can’t help myself to avoid coming to this place and surfing the internet for a lil time.^^

hey, i’ve got a news for everybody! even if this is a lil late and not that big to be a hot issue, i am feeling thrilled to tell u : that i already (at least in the way of…) have this positive stigmas in my head. i mean, i realised lately, that i always try to seek any postive meaning from what people say. it’s small for other people, but it is big for me, since i was a bit negative thinker back there in the past. but i still struggling with negative thinking for me myself. i don’t know, i seldom can think positive about me, but i always encourage that i can be more than what i am thinking…^^"

some of people told me that i’m smart, some of them telling me not that smart, some of them tell me i’m lazy and sensitive, some of them telling me that i look like boys, some of them think that i’m such a person that not good to be friend with, and some of them telling me that i’m their best friends…

many things that people say about me.in front of me, or behind my back. but what i know, that i’m happy being myself. and i know somewhere out there, there are people who understand me and love me like i love them. ^^"

oh, one more, before i forgot, this is INDEPENDENCE DAY OF INDONESIA! happy independence day! and i’m proudly tell ya’ll, even in this chaotic conditions that occur here in my country, I STILL AM PROUD TO BE AN INDONESIAN.

miss this place bunches. i can’t tell wif words.

i only get less than 2 weeks, but still, it is more than enough for me to feel the air again.

of course, there are payments for that. i feel am terribly sorry for my head of documentation, BiBi. yea, i have left my job. but promise you, i’ll do my best when i get back to bandung later…^^", go there n fight! i know u there can do it!

moreover. i hope my journey to Bali won’t be disappointing, and could give me a brand new battery to re-charge my energy and have new fun when i back to college…^^"

yea, this thing makes me nervous still. i don’t know, even i feel really happy, but on the other hand, there is such a butterfly effect in my stomach…hehehe…