RhE’z virtual journal : read n chill

ma’ pap toLd me to practise grammar, so i think i’ll wRite diZ’s day bloG w/ engLIsh…

u knoe, i’m feelin saD….noPE, maybe u can caLL it LonelY…? but ironiCly, i shuLd be haPPy now…coz ma’ pap juZ boughT me da 6th boOk oF haRRy poTTer…hiKZ…

hah…i feeL am LOnelY now….no onE smz me….(even tho’ i change ma’ caRd intO jempoL one…)but even ma’ LUphLy duzn’t give me a S#@% oph his attention….hate it…i knoe, he goT tesT, i (am tryin’ to) undZtand dat…so i won’t botheR him…buT i feeL lonely…and tomoRRoe wiLL be hoLIday…n he duzn’t hav to be study at diz time (i’m sure he is nOT dat diligent…)

cK…duNNoLah…i juz want sumoNe to spoiLEs me…(am i too egoist foR diz wiSh?), w/ his stuFf to do now…no wonder dat sumtimez maybe not long in da fuTUre he’ll be boRing with me n move his hearT to anodeR GIRL…!

i believe him. i am. but i dun like living without attention u knoe…i want his attention and i can’t get it! i juz want dat from him…even tho’ sum guys tryin’ to get any attention fRom me…i juz wanna his attention…but he cares most abouT his Playstation n his felLAs…i can play together with his fellas if he ask me to accompanied him sumtimes…but he neveR ask dat..so wad shuLd i do? begging him to take me to his spoT? i dun want to make myself siLLy n stuPId and look dat desperate…

anyway, 2 days ago i watched final fantasy VII: advent Children….! it jus amaziNG! the graphic, the story, the animations..clouD, rufuS, sephiroTh, even kadaj’Z gank….hiKz…sooooooooooooooooo coOOOOoooooooooooooLLL…..!!!!

cLoud, i Luph u!!!!! man, he’s sO damN coOL!!! hehehe…i like rufuS too…the scene when cLod got fiGht w/ kadaj’z gank at da deseRt and alSo in da tuNNEl…man…i can’t say it in woRdz….it juz amazinG!!! hwehehehe…

hiKZ….i stiLL miss him tho’… but he’s too busy w/ his stuff…i dun want to ask him more for his attention..i dun want to be dat egoist….but….he seems never undztand my will, my feelin, my passion….hiKz….

cinta sejati….tak akan pernah mati….

s’lalu menghiasi….ketulusan cinta ini….

dan kau selalu…diam membisu…

meskipun kau tahu….betapa dalam cintaku..

hehehe….., ga dink itu bukan suasana hati meL…kebetulan laggi dengerin om aRie LAssO doank…^-^

tadi baru aja pulang jam 10 dari acara pemuda di gereja, terunanya kebagian nyanyi seperti BiaSa…(kadang terunanya kayaK meL ni bikin rame aja digreja..hehehe….uraT malu putuZ…^-^)

si arThuR tadi jadI oranG berdaSi di draMAna pemUda…Luthu berAt…lebih LutHU lyat si CliFF (cakRa) jadi fiRaun…ampuN dah…bukannya kayak raja, tapi beneRan kyak ayaM (siaP) poTonk….! hwehehehe….blum lagi si weLky yang pura2nya jadi saudarana yuSuf….cuma pake kutang doank ma clana pendek…benaR2 mirip binaRangka…hehehe…

tapi semuaNa dipuaskan ole makanan penuTup…huhuhuhu…

yah…hari yang melelahkan…besok libUr gitu d…ada siWalatRi…(hindu’S stuFF),. gini dah di baLi…banyak libuR….^ - ^

i bet u guyz pernah brantem ma uR sibling…ya gak? hah…tadi sore juga meL bisa brantem sama di JOse….wad a crab he toLd ma’ moM…dan terus aja…sebagai yang paliNg Tua…meL jadi ‘tumbal’….hehehe…ya gitu d….menyebalkan juga…

sumtimez pasti kalian pernah mikir betapa eNaknya gak punya soDara, like i did. tapi, meL bersyukur kok karena udah punya sodaRa2, banyak pula..yang ngeramein isi hidup meL…tapi ya itu, meL paling gak suka kalo udah ada insiDen kayak ginie…iihhhh, rasanya pingin nendang jauh2…mana mama ngebeLa dy kareNa selain anaQ bonTot, he also the only one boi in ma’ famZie….>.<

diskriminasi! diskriminasi! diskriminasi gendeR! arrrrghhhh…..!

ya gitu d, tadi meL ngamuk berat gara2 mama ngebelain si joSe mulu…but, finally…the biggest slalu aja mesti ngalah….

pernah gak sih ngerasa kesel kayak mel? tapi kayaknya mel masih jauh lebih beruntung deh di hidup nie, karena psati masih banyak orang2 di dunia nie yang gak punya sibLing, or even famZie! mestinya meL lebih mensyukuri yah…

^ - ^

by: -Rhe-

i’ve done such a siN lately…but i dunno y i juz so feeL comfoRt to do it…i dunno how to sTop it…hiKz…feelin’ guilty yet enjoY it…. ^ - ^

yah, eveRybody make their own sinS kan ya? sekarang tinggal how to make it less than befOre…. ^ o ^

oYa, pingiN deh ikUt ujian UNPAR yang glmbang pertama…lagian lagi butuh refreshing ney…hehehe….

juz now, i received sms dat tellin’ me dat ma’ fella got an accident! tabrakan 3 beruntun! untung gak apa2 mereka…apun dah, rider jaman sekarang..geLO2 kalu dah nyetiR entah itu motoR entah moBiL…sok jagoaN n sok pembaLAp….gini dah kalu dah kecelakaan…sukur2 gak knapa napa, kalu ada yang mpe masuk rumah sakit oR even worse, mati,gimana?! pada lari dah kalu udah disuruh tanggung jawab…

yah fella, makanya ati2 aja kalu bawa kendaraan bermotor ya….?

Jlu,

by : -Rhe-

if u Luph sum1, will u ever being bored with him/her? it’s not like dat. maybe sum oph u fella, pro with the song of verTicaL horiZon called ( well, i forgot da title..hwehehe…^-^). it says dat love can be so boring…

it’z totally NO NO for me. there’s no lupH dat can make u boRed…such a silly reason if u use dat kind of things to broke yoUR partner uP…

there’s sum oph pipel who duzn’t like to meet their partner frequntly..they think, dat less meeting is better…umpH, i think dat it’z better if u meet uR partner frequently…u can communicate better than they who are not. well, as you know, communication is the essential thing in relationship…^-^

i tell ya’, smz oR even phone, or emaiL, or letter, is such an additionaL helper..it will be so much better to hav the kind of ‘face to face’ relation…

ey, tadie aQ jalan2 kan ke cenTro biz darie greja, dapet lyat diskoN ripCurL mpe 70% oFF! dapet d tadi 1 baju keren! hehehhe…

tp tadie ada ‘an embarassing moment’ happened! gak mau cerita ah, ntaR aibNa katahuan lagie…hehehe…

eh, buat temen2Q yang pernah ato lagi join EF, pada ikutan gak ef valentine party di kamsut tgl 11 bsok? kalo ada yang ikutan kasih tau yupZ…

2day i got a day off from skuL…guru2 pada rapat gitu d di kePundung…(where da hell is dat?)

tadi pagi jam 6an maen2 ke pante kuTa ma de’sRi…rencananya menikmati ombak n udara pantai pagi2 yang masih sejuk gitu d…^-^, si Le (temenQ) katana juga surfing pagi2 gitu..tapi belon sempet ketemu, yang mungkin laen kali d ya, le? hehehehe…

terus pas pulang beli Bur_yam dulue di pasaR kuTA…yah lumayanlah..hehehe…

pas mpe rumah lanjut makan lagi, mandi, n tewas mpe jam 2an gitu…gila…bosen berat dirumah…ntar mau ngajak nicO cabut ke CnTro ah biz les…hehehe….pusing berat cuma diruMah doank…huhuhuhu…

cinTAQ juga tadi pas di mc pagi2 masih moloR….(dasar kebo…^-^)

yah, jarang2 dah bisa bangun subuh2 pas liburan gene…lumayan buat penyegaran gitu de….oupZ, kmaren juga aQ baru nyetor uang foRm. buat UNPAR ke nani..moga2 cepetan tu hepenk dikasih ke lyra, biar cepet berez urusannya..hehehe…

hard. it’z a hard thing foR me to be such a patiEnce personaLity. duzn’t mean i can’T be patiencE..but ‘patience’ isn’t my middle naMe…

especially in thiz case. _ _ _ _ case. i juz think dat it’s my priority to get more attention than i gave…>.< but, i can’t juz asked him 2 give me more.

maybe i’m the type opH persoN who love attention….hah, but is it wrong anyway? i’m noT ‘cAPeR’ if dat wad uR thingkin’….

but maybe i hav to be patience for awhile…i hav to. i hav to learn dat i can’t get more attention than now….even if i REALLY WANT TO….!!!!

ironic, eh? it’s nothin’. i can handle it…[i do hope so... :p]

LUph me, myseLf, n meL….(sounds famZie..? hehehe….)

- Rhe -

well den, 2day i found myself feelin’ bLue…[nod dat boizband pliz...]

sumbody has taken my patience away from him! yes, it’z juz a little tiny case, but it juz make me mad! phew….

as a chick, duzn’t it become normal if i asked da persoN i Luph to give me some more attention? well…here i am, da attention-hunger chick….^-^

buT, in some case, boiz neva’ undztand diz lil’ thing i want to…ummm, u can call me such an egoist for some reason..but i du hav sum reasonz to feel diz kind oph way 2…. ^ - ^

b4 u gus feelin’ bored coz oph ma’ bLue feelin’, shall we change da topiC? hehehe…

harie nie pan IDUL ADHA, jadi met hari iduL kurban ya buat temen2Na meL yang ngerayain gituwh….^-^ bagi2 kambing gulingNa dUnkz….hehehe…, si unta tadi juga ngajakin kerumahNa cuman kagak ada yang nganteR…hikZ…padahaL pingiN icip2 banget tuwh…^-^

n ma’ mom has cancelled our lil’ trip to da mall today, coz her frenz couldn’t join us…., tapi mungkin ntar malem jadie pergi jga tuwh…^-^

yah, luayan buat ngilangin rasa kesel….mungkin mel akhir2 nie kesel gara2 mau dapet kali ye..? hwehehehehe…..^o^

FALLIN’ IN LOVE WITH YOU…. (laguna om ElViz…hehehe….)

yes, i can’t help fallin’ in luph w/ u boi, even dat i tought it will be such an easy way to erased u from ma’ mind, but then u came along n reach my heart again…

even dat, i think dat u’ve changed now… yah…like, u were nod diZ C.U.E.X like now…n sumtimeZ uR cuEKz attitude makes me feel doubt of uR feeling to me….^-^. it’z nod wrong to hav PS2 n uR beZ fellaz to accompany u every-single-day…cuman kadanK u even doesn’t remembeR me! even for an SMZ for a day! hah….>.<

okay, change topiC.  haRie nie, biz kgReja, meL pegi ke panTe ma fellaZ, pantai nusa2 gitu sey yang adem n gak panaz2 amat….nyante2 mpe jam 6an getoh…mpe rada masuk angin diQit. hehehe…(byasa, peruT lemah…>.<)

n yesterday, malem mingguanNa meL dirumah temeNna meL bantuin dy nguruSin b’day party heR lil’ BrO…hwehehehe….^o^

yah, no speCial stoRy sie..cuMA pingin menuHin bloG di fs jak’….hahaha….^ - ^

oupZ, besoQ dah mulai sQuL n bimbingAn alna feBruari dah pemanTApan getoh…back to da reality….T.T

ummmm, tadie siaNk pan meL pe’gi ke stuDiO krNa dah janJian ma BunZhu n tiQong…yah, lumayanLah hasiLna byarpun buQan ntu yang pengeN meL ceritaiN..hwehehe…

meL lagi QzeL…sibuQ boleh si sibuQ, dikacanGin bole sih diQcangin (byarpun beneran, meL GAQ SUKA dikacangin…), tapie bole koQ diperhatiin diQit…abiZna meL ngerasa byaR baru staRT soRt oph nU relatiOn, tapie meRasa taQ ada haRgana…(hehehe,..buQan berarti muRahan boQ…makSudna taQ dihaRgai gitcHu munGkin..^-^)

yah, kYak buaT bonEqa pajangan ato bisa dibiLang bawaaN Qarna beLon Qtemu yaNg lebiH menantaNk ja..(giLA, Qalo otaQ mel bisa berimajiNAsi ginie heBOh, mestina jadi penuliS noVel ajha kalee ya…? hwehehe..)

tapie bener koQ, NGE-SE-LIN. itu ajha. tapie meL kagaQ suka riBut besaR cuma QarNa haL sms-aN atO connectivitY ja’…>.<

hah…lega udah bisa ngeluariN uneG2. alNA kalo cerita ke temEn2 langsung kebayaQan kagak mao dengerin..hehehe…^-^

g’mana hari-mu buDDiez? ngeseLin enouGh? hahahaha….